Hi! Welcome to my blog!! My name is Maria. I grew up in a small town in Idaho and just before my 20th birthday I moved to Seattle. I set out to “find myself” in Seattle. Late in my 20’s in the middle of finding myself my company moved me to Philly where my job was to travel all over the Northeast looking for Semi-trucks. Yep, in the snow, rain, and humidity, out playing hide and go seek with big giant trucks. But hey, I told my company I would give them 3 years in this job before I would want to go back to Seattle and do something else.
When I moved to the City of Brotherly Love I didn’t know a single person, so hey, why not try online dating? Annnd that’s where I met my husband. He came around the corner to pick me up for our first date, and I thought to myself, I am screwed. There goes my 3 year plan. I’m here for the long haul.
We were married 4 years after dating and had our first baby a year later. We were having a baby. I can’t really travel and do my job with a brand new baby at home. I am going into unchartered territory – a stay at home mom. Gasp!! Not what I saw myself doing. Ever. We adjusted. I hit on mom’s at Gymboree just so I could connect with other mom’s, start playdates and whatnot. Life was pretty great! When Joey was 6 months old – SURPRISE!!! We’re pregnant! Aaagghh!!! I think that’s when my depression really hit. Joey wasn’t sleeping through the night. Getting him down was difficult, and now bring another baby into this when we haven’t even figured out the first one? But, she came and is the best little blessing we could have asked for.
Unfortunately my depression go worse and my husband wasn’t handling anything well, at all. When Joey was 18 months we were tossed another curve ball. Joey was talking and saying words – until he wasn’t. I had a friend who is a speech pathologist take a look at Joey. She had some concerns but nothing major, just a good idea to get a full evaluation. By 23 months, my child has an autism diagnosis. I go into full fix it mode. Look for the best therapy, get him into see everyone I was told to have him see. Trying to cope with this curve ball and be there for Katelyn. And, my marriage was falling apart. We were hating each other. We were both miserable. We went to counseling.
Joey is now 5 and doing AMAZING!! Katelyn has a language delay but we are working on it. Both my kids are sweet, crazy smart, intuitive, and just fantastic. It’s the end of 2016 and I am OVER IT! I am over being miserable. I’m done. 2017 I am on a mission. I want to be better. I want to be happy. This blog is about my journey to feeling better. I hope I can inspire others to find their own happiness, their own better.
“Being a mother redefines us, reinvents us, destroys us, and rebuilds us.” – Shonda Rhimes